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I'm no longer exhausted

It's taken a while, and although I am fully aware that I can't change the world, I've decided to really settle back and let others do what they need to do. I've been so swept up in the 'why can't people see what's going on' game, that I have forgotten to practice what I teach about mindfulness. Being in the moment, working on the things in your own life that you can change, without worrying about the rest of the world.

Fifty Four years on the planet.

I have always been a healer. I'm a beauty therapist by trade, having moved into the realm of holistic therapies about twenty five years ago. I trained back in the early 80s - so if you're not sure of my age, you can pretty much work it out. I'm 54 this year.

It's a year since we were catapulted into Lockdown. We had no idea what would happen twelve months down the line, and I'm sure we have all been through the health/mortality/priority/rest scenario.

We had no idea that one year on we would be in Lockdown number Three, and our friends would be fighting each other over wether they really thought the Vx was the golden chalice that was 'advertised'.

Everyone is changing.

As things around us change as a super fast rate, we are often swept along with it all. We don't always stop and look within ourselves to really feel what's going on.

I have to be careful posting on social media, and I'm now selective to who sees my posts. The last thing I want to do is upset family members who have very different views to me, but what I won't do, is change my views and beliefs just to please others. I've had family and friends quite offended by some of the posts I've written and shared, and although I have felt sad that they feel that way, I know that I must stand in my own truth and do what I'm here to do.

I'd like to point out that I am fully aware of people who have had Sars Covi-2, and I know of some who have lost family members. I'm respectful that everyone has their own story to tell, and a life to lead, but I won't be made to feel guilty about having my own thoughts about what's going on. Fighting in the ranks is something I wasn't banking on, but we must ALL do what we feel is right for ourselves.

Reasons and Seasons.

I've written before about friends coming into your path for a Reason, a Season or a Lifetime. The life-timers are actually very rare, and should be treasured. The Reasons and Seasons should be showered with gratitude because they came for a reason, and could stay for a season or two. Everyone else is an acquaintance, and that's fine too. I was told the other day that my Face Book following was bound to go down because of what I was posting.....

Maybe, but people move towards, or away from others all the time. This happened with Brexit and every election! Most of my very good friends don't agree with a lot of my posts, but we are still friends. It's what makes us human.

Choices are personal.

If you have chosen to take the Vx, thats great. If you don't want it, that's great. You've made a choice based on the information you see. You will feel so much better, because that's YOUR story, and we need to respect that. We are human be-ings, living on the planet experiencing all sorts of things, and we should be respecting each other and not shouting each other down. The divisiveness isn't helping anyone.

People are being called selfish conspiracy theorists, if they state they don't want it, although it's a FACT that if you have the Vx, you can still catch the virus, AND carry it. So I'm not quite sure why people would call others selfish? Maybe it's because they have been led to believe they are now immune and safe, because they've heard celebrities saying how fabulous they feel because they are now immune - I'm quoting Michael Ball on BBC Radio2 a couple of weeks ago!

There are plenty of other ways to find out information.

It's very interesting that the alternative information is being branded as fake news and shut down. Doctors from all over the world were being removed from Social Media for telling their story, which may or may not be the truth. Just as the news you see on the telly box may or may not be true.

So, how would you know what to do?

Remember I'm an holistic therapist, as well as an artist. I've worked with energies all my life, and as I've got older I feel even more strongly that as human beings we are here for a reason. It's YOUR life path. No one else leads YOUR life, and maybe I should just sit back and think 'I'm ok Jack, you just carry one and do what you think is right', when I can see so much else going on behind the scenes. I just feels wrong not to share, but on the other hand I don't want to frighten people this far down the line.

The sudden nursing home deaths that aren't being reported on MSM, the enforced DNRs that I knew about last year are only just being reported on the BBC. Unless you watch independent news like UK Column News, you probably won't see the other side. I often watch Dan Astin-Gregory on Facebook. He now has a pod cast where he interviews people who aren't allowed on the mainstream because it would disrupt the narrative too much!

Find your own answers.

Remember that everyone has a path, and you can never be on the wrong path. It's just your path. You can, however wander up and down and divert across, but it's still YOUR path. Find your way in whatever you are doing at the moment.

Take time out. Breathe, walk, run, rest, eat, paint, create, meditate, and listen to what feels right for YOU.

No one knows you, like you do!

As always, thank you for reading.

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Nicki is a Contemporary Energy Artist and Holistic Healer based in the beautiful Somerset Levels.

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